After the game - Trent getting another "Little Slugger" award - the boys are EXCELLENT ball players! Its so fun to watch!
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Holly Black is coming to Seattle!
15 years ago
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Another T-Ball game in the damp sun!
After the game - Trent getting another "Little Slugger" award - the boys are EXCELLENT ball players! Its so fun to watch!
Friday, May 30, 2008
BBQ with Wyatt & Trent's classes
Ahh, so cute even up close! Today there was a BBQ at Wyatt & Trent's school - Olivia and I went down to have lunch with the boys!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
A few days on Montana ... a lifetime of change ...
I have been in Montana since the morning of the 17th. Today was Eric's memorial in Kalispell, over 500 people were there. It was a very long day for the kids, emotional, sad, a blur. Tomorrow we are leaving for Seattle, and there will be a second memorial in a few days. When we got back from the memorial, we were locked out of the Condo, so Sierra and Olivia and I just sat ... sometimes in silence, sometimes in laughter, always - seemingly - in tears. As a mother, this is the hardest thing I have every had to witness my children going through ... I wish I could take their pain away ...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
In Memory of Eric Richard Berry 1/09/71 - 5/16/08
I got the call around 7pm on Friday May 16th. Chris and I were shopping at the mall with Maureen, Dane and the three little kids. Dane handed me his phone and said there was an emergency. A family friend was crying on the phone, and I knew it was a "death call" (it had just been the one year anniversary of my sister Caitlin's death, one year since I got the last call like this) - time seemed to stop, and my first painful thought was that something had happened to one of my daughters - I felt life drain out of my body. I heard "Eric was killed in an accident" - at that moment, the entire world seemed to shift. My poor children - this is the kind of pain I can't imagine a child having to endure. I had to tell Dane, I had to then tell the girls - but they knew. Chris immediately drove Dane and I to Montana ... we stayed there for a week, and then brought the girls back with us to Seattle. We now are working through all the grief, the pain, the anger. Working towards understanding this terrible tragedy, working towards having all 6 kids full time, working towards moving, working towards loving all of our children with every ounce of our hearts, working towards healing and growing as a family. Working towards reminding Dane, Sierra and Olivia every day how much their dad loved them, and how so many of his wonderful talents live on in them.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Here is something Sierra wrote for her daddy:
Daddy
just to hug you
see you
say goodbye to you
hear you say "your face!"
just to kiss you
give you a hug
laugh with you
just to say thank you
and
just to tell you I love you
and miss you
... just one last time
Here is something Olivia wrote for her daddy:
A man proposes to a beautiful woman.
His love of his life at the time.
The marriage is made and they have three wonderful and beautiful children.
The marriage didn't last.
They divorced and made their own choices.
There was some bad choices but also some good.
But years later, they were settled into there normal lives and adjusted.
Just as it started going good,
There was a turning point.
Two kids woke up.
Although they did not want to go to school, they got ready.
Their father was off to work and said, "I'll see you after school girls!"
One child was up and hugged him goodbye.
The other though, was half asleep and all she said was a grunt meaning bye but being too lazy to move her mouth.
It was a Friday and both kids were excited for the weekend and soccer that night.
One child was probably acting wild at school,
while the other one leaned back in her chair trying to think of a superb dinner for her dad after his busy day at work.
It was after school and one daughter called her dad to see what time her dad would be home.
"Umm, about six honey." he said to the oldest.
They said goodbye and she carried on with her life.
It was six and we were calling to see where he was.
He didn't answer.
They figured he was on his motorcycle, on his way home.
The youngest was searching through the fridge for a good meal to cook.
Again, we called.
No answer.
"Still on his way home?" the girls questioned.
Again, and again, there was just his answer machine.
Hours later, they started worrying but knew that it was impossible.
They played soccer, keeping their mind off the terrible thoughts.
Afterwards, the two got in their friends car about to get some ice cream.
Their cousins walked up and said they had to go home.
Immediately, they knew what had happened.
Tears streamed down their face like a waterfall.
It was unimaginable.
They didn't want to believe it.
It was too hard.
Too hard to picture their future...
With out their dad.
The youngest regretted being to lazy to even say, "I love you!" or even a hug like the other mornings.
"Why this morning did i not get up?" she asked herself, "why!"
If I got another chance, I'd be all over him.
The oldest on the other hand is very depressed and gloomy.
Of course she was sad just like the young one.
But she just let out her tears.
She let out her anger, fear, and sadness.
She wanted to see him once more.
Both daughters regretted the things they did wrong and wanted to start over.
The point is, you never know the future.
It can be expected or unexpected.
So unexpected that it will be hard to believe.
So even if your on your time of the month or just pissed off,
Remember,
You can't tell the future, you can only show your feelings.
You don't want to be so angry at yourself that you hurt yourself.
Be yourself and show how you feel.
So if you have been meaning to call a relative or a friend that you haven't talked to in years,
Do it now.
You don't want to regret anything, try to do your best in showing how you feel.
You might not grieve as much
Thursday, May 15, 2008
A nice afternoon and evening at Carkeek Park
Today we picked up Dane, Wyatt, Trent, Bailey and Cooper and headed down to Carkeek park. It was a beautiful spring afternoon - pretty chilly - but still a wonderful day to be at the park. Everyone had a wonderful time playing in the surf, finding special rocks, and exploring the beach. On the way home, we came across and accident where a woman had rolled backwards down a hill on her motorcycle. We stopped to help her, and stayed with her until the medics came (she was fine) ... it felt good to help someone, and was eerily ironic for what was about to change our lives forever within the next 24 hours ...
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