Another day at a park, another day to be with those we love

We have spent a lot of time out at parks the last few days, since Caitlins death. It's a chance for us to watch the kids play, see them laugh, see them burn their never ending energy. Its been a chance for me to just try to find gratitude for my family and friends, who have all been so incredibly wonderful to us. The kids are all doing remarkably well - the three younger ones were removed enough at this point that what they see is our sadness, but otherwise, life is normal. Dane is having a bit of a harder time, being a teenager, and Sierra and Olivia are still in Montana ... but death is hard to understand and accept at any age. I am thankful for a chance to love everyone and everything around me, to watch Spring slowly turn into summer, to watch the kids cartwheel and run, to see life around us. But still, this grief catches me off guard, and is overwhelming at times, taking my breath away and altering my view of everything. I guess this is normal, but finding ways to cope has been hard ... Bailey is learning to be a boarder already!